I went through something similar to this a few months back. I sat in t's office and just practically exploded it all in this breathless torrent of words and tears and after we talked about it awhile she offered a 2nd appt that week where we talked about it some more and that was so very helpful. Thankfully with her help I was able to ride it out. I think maybe that's something that we just have to do.... learn to ride it out with t's help. I dunno if it helps or not, but at least it lets you know you're definitely not alone in that! hugs.