I understand that feeling...for me I think that it goes back to childhood and always wanting to believe what my caregivers were telling me was true, and then being disillusioned by the fact that many times it was a lie. I just began to believe that everyone close to me was lying to me...whether true or not, but it felt that way. So maybe this is rooted somewhere in past experiences and feeling it with your T is a safe place for you to be angry about it and begin to build trust in her and others around it...hope that made since?