So I grew up in a lovely quiet little seaside town. I'm living in a city with more people in it than my country.

My home town has zero career opportunity, like I prob wouldn't get a job bless someone in my profession retires as there are probably ten jobs max in my specialty in the town.

My home town and family don't know I'm bipolar.

How much of a bombshell do you think it would be for me to say I'm tired, I'm a bit sick, i have bipolar and I need a break. And go to art school for a year.

I can't fix myself in the big city in a new country by myself.

I'm 26 and left my home town seven years ago, also when I got bp.

I just want to go home. I just need to pay back my awesome one way ticket to Asia for three months then unemployed in a new country for two months manic savings, as I embarked with $2k (haha not in aus or us dollars either!) credit card bill first.

I just want to go home. I can't tell if it's me copping out and playing the sick role or not, I've just not been ok for over a year now, I can't get back on the horse ATM. But I don't seem sick to others, ppl think I'm ok.

I don't know. My gut says go home, every day.