Hi, Hatter08. I am so sorry to hear what happened to you and your sister. It sounds like you are a very different person from your father. You seem to be responsible for actions and do not want to harm other people. I would like to point out that causing injury to others is a conscious action. And you seem to be conscious of your actions to not want to harm others. In that sense, you are very VERY different from your father. Still, I think it would be a good idea to see a counselor in order to deal with your difficult past. You need to discuss it and your feelings so that you can lessen their affect on you and so that you can live in the present and have a life of your own. All the best to you!