two sons,
I understand that need to take the meds and escape, I have been doing it and it is affecting my 13 yo. I had to stop when people began suggesting there was a physical need for the meds building up and that maybe I should consider NA. What I want to share with you is that when we take all those meds to sleep we risk the possibility of our bodies never waking again. So I hope you can take the meds as prescribed and find a better way to deal with what ever you are running from. Your son should be your big concern as he sees a behavior that he may pick up himself. I wish you luck and am willing to support you in any way. about the loss of your psychiatrist, how sad I know connecting with some one new can be hard, but try to find the positive, maybe a new psychiatrist will be able to offer something new, just take your time to interview psychiatrist so you can find one you will be comfortable with. My blessings are with you.