Thanks so much for all your responses guys.

I had my session and it ended up not getting discussed... there have been many intense things going on in my life lately which were more pressing.

Anyway during the session I really felt how clinical she is. Not warm. Not someone I would want any physical contact from. My relationship to her will always be cold and clinical. It's not the relationship I want but given that I don't have much money I don't have much choice. So I guess it's all a moot point. I've been reading for awhile here and read how some of you have warm relationships or even wish she was your mom.... I am happy for you all, and a bit envious, that you have that relationship. It must be a wonderful thing when you can find it.