Rose, your story is mine in so many ways. I avoid going out of my house and my anxiety creeps up when I do. Not having structured time is not healthy for me, so I had to make a change. 2 weeks ago I began volunteering for the Red Cross and it has gving me some of my confidence back as I am helping people like I did when I worked as a social worker. I too receive SSDI and have guilty feelings around that. I think joining a group is a good idea, it is working for me. finding something meaningful to do is also a good idea. Maybe you can volunteer somewhere where you can use your nursing skills. Breaking the isolation cycle is hard but I believe you can do it just think positive. feel free anytime to PM me I can always use a friend and want to offer you support. keep posting as well as that does seem to help. take care.