It would be worthwhile to talk to your T about your fear....that if you don't work, she'll leave you. That's important.

I haven't been working much in therapy either...and my T is ok with that. It's my pace, and I have the power to determine how much work I do or don't do in therapy. Maintaining the connection and strengthening the relationship is an important piece of therapy as well - so that when you do decide to get back into the work, that piece is already intact.

It's not uncommon to go through phases in therapy where the pace is not always aggressive.