I had similar experience I had 1 real close friend sense 5th grade we both got abused by the same guy at the same time so we watched each other we were friends for along time until it all came out in high school I got another friend in high school who had no idea what happened and I spent alot of time with her. my best friend from 5th grade we drifted away I wanted a relationship with her but she just never wanted to do anything we didn't even talk about what happened to us. She droped out of school and so I never saw her I saw her when I was 21 but it was ackward and after that we just lost contact. my other friend we were real close until a year ago when I felt it was just a relationship that she loved to show off to me and make me jealous that she had a boyfriend and I didn't so now I don't have them and I miss it so much it hurts alot. to know there gone.