Cannot relax! Took a break from dealing with my boxes - went for a pedicure. Could not yield to the kneading massage chair! Could not relax as usual. I mean, you are supposed to be relax during a pedicure! No! It was not anxiety, just feeling tense. Then realized why: I am dealing with a lot! I have a move next weekend and I am not entirely packed yet, then my friend is coming on that same day because his friends from San Diego changed their mind and invited him later, so he is first staying with me and that is uniquely inconvenient but I cannot help it. And before all of that I will hear about the job I am applying for. And frankly, there was a period of time (after they called and said that so far I had the strongest interview feedback) when I thought that getting this job was a sure thing. Do not think that any more! See a clear possibility of rejection here. And that would mean that I am stuck with my current supervisor until June and (if, in the best case scenario, I am converted to a permanent emplooyee) possibly longer. The hiring manager where I am applying is brilliant... unlike my current supvisor. How I wish I could make the switch! And the work would be much more varied and interesting: what I do currently is extremely repetitive and extremely boring, even with my high tolerance for repetitive work. Plus, I do not entirely understand it, and my supervisor does not quite, either, and I do not have technical background to understand everything (I can still do the job, but it feels odd). At the job I am applying for I would understand everything - I would be a true expert, and that is how I like it. Plus, it would be a short biking distance from my apartment - could not be better. And although they did not disclose what amount of money they would be offering, plugging the position title and the zip code into salary.com yields a figure that is tens of thousands more than I am making. Making that kind of money would enable me to restart paying child and spousal support. Now I just make enough for myself.

Vibrant work environment, too.

Basically, if it works out, it would be too good to be true.

But I need to prepare myself for it not working out. For a rejection.

With my friend also - does he mean anything making a point to say "kiss you" before disconnecting Skype every time, or is it a formality? Am I going to face a rejection there, too?

That would be a lot of big rejections in the course of one week. Or two weeks. The more important one is the job. By far.

With the job, also, there is a possibility that they will open another position in a few months and if I end up being a close second this time around, they might be interested in me for that second position. But I would much rather get the first one... yeah...not having to wait would be soooo nice.

I guess I should already prepare a draft of the respone to their polite rejection letter - something along the lines of thanking them for the consideration and explaining that I will continue to be available in a few months should they need me. Right? If I have a good draft ready, I will feel better.