Thank you all so much for relpying. You don't know, well you probably do, know how much it means to me that you have responded to me. I take your advice really seriously. My husband and I go to therapy together. However my other alters get in the way very often and it is a struggle. I am on disability, I hate it, I want to work, I want to feel normal so to speak. I want to belong to the world, but I don't. I sleep sleep in my closet sometimes, because I get scared at night. I think someone is watching me sleep and so I close the closet doom on me, and listen to the voices calling to me to come out. I feel so trapped, and I just really need connection with other people like me. Sometimes I feel like child caught in this adult body, and a burden to everyone. Can anyone relate to this?