T3 is very insightful, if I tell her something happened she says oh thats because of this and that. She explains everything perfectly but is not the most sympathetic. I see her as more of a friend then a T and I feel weird seeing her in person. I tell her everything through email. She is a few years older than me and She swears a lot and talks normally not like a t, and I like this about her I feel like I can be myself around her and I am not trying to be somebody else like I was with the other T's. I had major transference with the other two t's and now its starting to develop with her and I am scared. Other two ts were older and more like moms.
I don't understand therapy and am confused by it all, I am wondering why I am even going anymore. I want to get to know T3 but everytime she emails me or texts me something happens and my barriers go up.