DSF, it really makes me sad for some reason that you are starting this. I know that sometimes I lose sight of what's the harm in it as concerning myself, but when it's someone I care about, I think this is a road that won't get you anywhere but lost. Please turn back before it becomes a lot harder. If you have a need for this, that means that you do have some emotions or something that maybe you aren't even aware of, and it is overwhelming your capacity to deal with it. I know that you aren't in therapy, but would it be an option for you to give it a try? Cutting will only make it worse, and even medication masks the symptoms without teaching you to cope with the feelings or gain real control and find the balance in your life.

Rap