So last night I cut myself for the first time in half a year. I felt like I deserved it and I felt like I needed it, and I missed it. Right now I'm not feeling anything. I'm not feeling guilty, sad, regretful... it's almost as if I won't admit to doing it. Why am I not feeling the normal regret/guilt/etc.?

Part of me wants to do it again tonight, another part of me is hoping that it was a one time thing. When I supposedly "stopped" 6 months ago, I knew that I would probably end up SIing again sometime in the future, but I didn't think it would be this soon.

-AJ