Thank you all very much for your kindness and empathy. You have made some wonderful comments. An AA in America is an Associates Degree, a two year community college degree. I have an idea of the field I want to go into, human service. I don't know if I could handle negative tough luck stories with my depression. I think it would bum me out further.

On some level, I do know I do what I want. I am an individualist. I hate our American competitive lifestyle. I am a free spirit and a bit of a hippy. I like living slow and being easygoing. It's tough in our type A country, so puritan and judgemental.