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Originally Posted by Lauru
My xT did not love me at all, she didn't even have unconditional regard for me. I failed by getting sick, and she dumped me. The night I OD'ed and was suicidal I called her. She told me not to call her and hung up. I hate her. She hates me. I guess we're even. She has hurt me down to my core. I will never see her again, and she is relieved. I always knew that if people saw the real me, they would hate me and leave. And I was right.
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((((Lauru)))).... I am so sorry you had this experience. Your T really failed you. I can't comprehend why she would have treated you that way. At the very least she could have been compassionate and directed you toward crisis intervention. I hope you are in a better place now.
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Originally Posted by button30
That was so beautifully written and composed! I can feel your pain seeping through, it must have been unbearable! Did your t accept your gift after? This was like an excellent novel I couldn't put down, thank you for being so honest!
I always feel tricked by therapy, our t makes us fall deeply in love and trust them, then they dump us and break our hearts I sometimes think it does more damage!
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This may have been the most painful experience of my life. I am not sure because I am still processing. T does still have the gift. He is holding it and wants to give it back to me when it has a different meaning.
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Originally Posted by Dreamy01
Oh gosh, this really resonates with me. Thanks for sharing. It is so hard to come up against a boundary and then face the reality of the relationship. It's so very painful. But I'm glad it has helped you see that T does care for you even if not in the way you want. That is a hard realisation but I think ultimately a very healing one.
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Thanks dreamy01. I have never had the experience of coming up against a boundary like this and having it so utterly reshape/transform/correct my perception. It was terribly painful, but absolutely necessary.