as a kid, i guess i was normal. i was born a girl, had a lot of girl toys. tho i enjoyed playing soccer and later around at age 9 i played at gym class at school, i was the goal keeper. then i started closing to myself, like i thought i was weird, i felt something was wrong... i got into a new school and there it all began to get worse, tho i could talk to people there, i didnt keep in touch outside school. and i started getting more anxious, since i was a kid i would sweat a lot (mom remembers i'd almost fall off my feet for they'd be wet lol) and it started to get worse
in high school i discovered about trans. and i started to do a lot of research on it, and i started to think... so i related to it, i really do feel like i'm male, thinking of my childhood makes me confused but i only started to feel good about myself when i started thinking of myself like that, and got proper clothes for example.
once my mom told me: i'm never going to shop in the boys section with you. haha
well, today i'm seeing a therapist to try to get a treatment to change. i want to take testosterone, i wear man clothes (and have some trouble with it because i dont have much money, never had patience to shop too, stuff like that) and have cut my hair short for a couple of years now. i'm turning 21 in november and i hate when people ask my age (or when someone i know, as my parents, tell my age to someone) because i really dont look so, i look like a 14 year old boy lol and i always get troubled to say my name to new people too.
plus, my parents are religious, and they keep thinking back of my childhood, they say i am living a lie. i had a lot of trouble til they accepted getting me into therapy (he's speciallized in sex theme, you know?) i guess they accepted it because they believe he's gonna change my mind