greenery, i have no business giving advice, so I won't. I would like to say that I do everything that you wrote about almost my entire days. Everything i write about, research, read about, songs I like, things I see, when I drive, take meds...everything has the undercurrent of suicidal ideation. It is frightening at times, but also very seductive, too. The mind is a strange thing, but I would not consider that you had these thoughts one time an unusual occurrence at all. You did mention that you are dealing with some mild anxiety and ADD. Perhaps this added to your unusual thinking. Like I said, I have no business giving advice, but I will say for myself that I wouldn't think twice about mentioning that episode to my doctor (in fact I have had many similar conversations with my 'therapy-team' and there has never been any suggestion that I should end my medication plan. The meds are a bridge to sanity so that you can think clearly through the therapy process. Anyway, that is how I see it.

Good Luck to You,
Fleeing Bellocq