you know what gen...

my family and even past family have all been painters...artists

I watched this incredible story the other day about Lucian Freud....the Grandson of the famous Sigmond Freud...Mental genius.

Lucian was in some kind of agony and expressed himself on canvas...brilliant artist

descended into madness the more he achieved....mellowed out....

filthy rich....holding his tired head in his hands

I remember these words he spoke about the famous Sigmond! his grandfather

said..."he is boring!"

...it's a personal blitz in this delicate world fragile and monstrous.

just gotta have some confidence to trust the memories...the stimulation inside ....the random phantoms

it's who we are I guess...