Thank you for understanding, MUE. I feel like parts of the puzzle are not only missing, but lost so that I will never find them. I need to radically accept that I won't know exactly why I have these needs. I think I can use DBT skills already! It's a dialectic. I don't have all the answers AND I can still accept the way I am, and change. For anyone who took DBT, is that correct? Dialectic says there's more than one answer.