I understand where everyone is coming from. In all honesty, I would like to go back to my T (It's been 3 months). The reason I am not seeing T now is because I went on a trip for a couple of weeks this summer, and I was supposed to get back on her schedule when I got home, except my parents decided that T would be a waste of time, and I should focus on my studies instead. Last year, I was doing poorly in school because I was so unhappy, and then I started to feel even worse because I was doing so poorly. My parents are afraid that our time and money could be better spent elsewhere, at least until after I retake my SAT exams and first quarter ends. So I won't be able to go back at least for another month. Then "we'll see" depending on how much progress I make in applying for college. I tried to reason with them, but I think they only have good intentions.

I also lied to my T about cutting because I didn't want her to tell my parents about it. I don't think my parents know. They've noticed I keep lots of sharp objects around, but never ask why. It's kind of something they shrug off, and I'd rather not have them find out - which is another reason I really wish I could stop soon, because I'm running out of places to cut that are easy to hide, and the places that are difficult to hide are easiest to get to. I'm not really sure how to go about pushing getting back in therapy. If it makes sense, I kind of want them to feel like I need to go. When things were really bad, my parents were proactive in making sure I got therapy. If they don't think I need to go, then why should I.... if that makes sense?