Hi. Just from reading your post, I think that you are judging yourself more harshly than anyone else would. You are questioning every decision you make because you don't trust yourself to make or have made the right ones. Just give it some time and know that even though you make a choice what happens with that choice is yours to do. If it doesn't work out just right then work with it to change it. Easier said than done I know but you can make this move and all the other things work better for you than the memories at the place you left. Good Luck!