Thank you all very much for your input. I am currently trying to figure out how I am going to talk to my husband about this, I know he will always love me no matter what but I do not think he will be able to understand this (as I don't even fully understand this myself). I am so afraid that even though he will forgive me, he will not be able to trust me anymore, and he has never known me to have any problems at all ever, I hate to change that now. I know it is what I have to do, but it is so very hard, I am so afraid of getting a label or people thinking of me differently (like I am crazy or something) and mostly I am afraid of being compared to my mom, because I know I am nothing like her. I have been praying for God to give me the strength and courage I need to do this all week, it's SO hard...