I do have a therapist but im in a waiting list so could be a while before i get to see him and unfortunately ive had bad experience with the crisis team so i dont think it would be a good idea to ring them i know cutting only makes it go away for a little while but at the minute that seems better then not having it go away at all.... And its not your fault so dont apoligise you are doing your best and that is better then nothing .... I guess its just me being stupid