When I first joined PC, I was just starting to really FEEL emotions. It was as if I was going on auto-pilot for years, walking on eggshells, cautiously, getting through each day, living only in fear......

....Then, I made some drastic changes to my life that caused a flooding of memories and emotions that I had (and have) trouble allowing myself to feel and work through.

Hence, mixedup_emotions! MUE, for short.