I had the opportunity and said nope. to me it makes no sense to sit there tapping my head or other part of my body with my fingers while repeating a phrase like - this will no longer bother me and then making a noise in between, and at the same time moving my eyes balls back and forth or up and down

Eye balls continuously moveing and not stopping, tap tap (with fingers never stoping and on a pattern) this will no longer bother me click click(verbally saying it) tap tap (still going on and on) (eyeballs still moving) this will no longer bother me click click

And do this each and every time the same thing triggers me over and over again no matter where I am ..

Yup I would look really good sitting in the court house lobby waiting for the anual review on my son and because of the crowdedness I start to panic and I start tapping my forhead in rhythm and start chanting this will no longer bother me click click this will no longer bother me click click and eyeballs moving back and forth back and forth...

Yup one way ticket to the J. Unit. (mental health unit here) because in the courts eyes I am acting strange.

heck I might as well dissociate. my acting out my separated pieces of memories is trigger related so I would only be acting out something like having to be stand up in front of a meeting anyway because court is a meeting situation and when its happened before there were no problems and no one noticed I was not mentally aware, in fact I recieved many compliments about how organized and so on I was.

EDMR not for me the best thing for me is plain old locating the triggers and doing something about it. when I get triggered by the crowds at court hearings I get up and go to the lower level first letting my lawyer know where I will be when the case is called and I sit in the less crowded area and listen to my music and draw or write about why I was triggered.

To me it make more sense to take care of the trigger