Hi Gabby,
Yep, you have been through a lot of difficult and painful changes in your life ~ just in the past year!

I have been divorced for 2 to 3 years now, and I still get the blues when I think about it. The difference is that I think about the loss less as time passes.
We do have children together though, which requires regular interactions with my ex-husband and cooperation with one another for our daughters' emotional health.
I hope that acceptance continues for you and lessens your pain day by day.