I know how you feel. Before I had my breakdown and went on meds I was able to just mentally shut down to get through and now I cant. I have to deal with it and its so flippin hard. I have a four year old boy, a princess whos going through the terrible twos and a lazy insensitive husband. So many time. I just want to go and not come back. I think theyd be better off without me cause I cant handle it. Just like recently. I have been so manic which is odd for me, Im usually down alot, and I went nuts. Screwed up the bills by forgetting stuff, had a bad day and had my hair cut super short, got one ear pierced four times, spaced on all responsiblilty and just last night I realized Ive been driving around on an expired drivers license. But, those days pass and some good ones come. I just have a hard time cause I am really really lonely alot. I feel so alone. I just want to cry and cry.I dont really have any friends or any support at all. I think we all feel that way though. Which oddly makes me feel a little less lonely.