I was a preemie and spent the first 3 months of my life in nicu. I have mild cp, but have been told that as an infant I 'forgot' to cry. I don't feel it's because I'm a preemie that I'm not close to my mom because I'm close to my father. I was the representation of my mother's failings as a female and strangers made sure she knew this. She had severe ppd after each of us.