hey again drunksunflower,
i was quite liking the southern influence on this post so felt i should add my two cents worth from the mainland yet again : p
i've struggled with depression for a while too and i used self-harm and anorexia to try and mask it, but it didn't make the pain go away - it only made things worse, and i never told anyone for so long, but when i finally started talking about it, things got so much easier. just out of curiousity why do u not think u can see a T? self-help books are a good idea tho i think. also, is there anyone at all u could talk to about this? if not the cutting at least the depression? ur not pathetic, its perfectly understandable that ur freaked.
take care and hope u are feeling a bit better by the time u read this