Yes I know this is his purpose to hurt me and I fall for it, so stupid of me and is one of the reason beating myself up, he knew it and probably happy dancing right now. However, I like to think that hurt make you wake up, hurt make you learn, hurt make you remember your lesson. OH I'm thinking positive now!! YES!!!

I'm feeling worthless for so long, I tried to change it by helping and giving support to people on here and other sites, whenever they said thank you or I'm caring/great person, etc. this make me feel so happy.