Hello everybody,
Well,Its my first time to post in here,Frankly i wasnt sure if i can talk about myself and my feelings or not....Im the last one who can express that "Me" or tell what i feel ..Though i have lotz of things to say....
I know im supposed now to talk about something i lost in that forum...Its not somebody..I lost myself...Yeah!..My real identity too,.....
Back 10 years,i used to be a very stable and secured girl,outgoing,socializing with everybody,Love life,talented and ambitious...Forgot to mention that i got to have a very happy parents....And i was 10 years old ....
Years passed,things started to change...And without getting into detalis...My life got darker..From that enchanting sparkling life to a weird gloomy life...I changed alot in these 10 years as im 20 now...Im very gloomy ,depressed,and quite....Im no more loving ppl,im no more feeling secured,i almost lost interest in everything i used to like,lost interest in my dreams and hopes....Feeling anxiety all over me all the time and feeling afraid,Drifting away of ppl and hating to socalize...God that it extremely harsh ....!!And that comes down to many problems i got in those 10 years...Financial and social problems ..also emotional problems...
What anybody can do when he/she feels losing trust in almost everybody??..feeling with disability in loving anybody ?? Hating just to hang out with friends or to go shopping so as not to see a human being...Feeling dismissed out of all ppl's lives and feeling that u r the last one who ppl remember Though u have alwaysbeen very good to them????
Sorry guyz..i know that may be my words would sound senseless to most of you......But suddenly i felt like talking and wanted To share these thoughts with you....Sorry for bothering...and thanks for your time...