hello,....
Im so sorry for what you got........Im speechelss and dont know what to say.....my words to you in that situation of deep grief is to try to hold to faith as long as u can..Faith In God....Knowing that God would never leave you alone and He is so near to you and helping you always...Keeping that thought in ur mind will surely help in cutting down a part of that grief and will reduce such agony that fills you....
By best wishes to you and take care......
Lara...