You had a difficult session just before the break, and it's never easy to get back after a few weeks... don't be too hard on yourself, this is hard. A T knows that sometimes the truth is too painful or scary. That doesn't offend them. You can email your T, right? (I'm sorry if I misremember.) Maybe tomorrow when you have a little distance to this painful session you can just email your T and say that you need to go back to some of the stuff you talked about today?

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time, crazylife.