I know im alive but its like a feeling or something, somethings i do seem like im just there and not really doing them mysefl
bleak? Well yeah i feel all broke down like sad and over it but it comes and goes all together thats the reason why i feel fake...

weird talk" i mean like i describe what i feel in my words and my mom (the one that tries to listen) just says im pressured or nervous, and ends the conversation whenim just like what!?
And i want to let everything out just dont know when to start or how to do it i need to find a pattern sometimes in my talk so that i can let things out so i dont miss a thing i dont know if i understood myself here