I understand how bad you feel, lost. I was a little triggered reading your thread because it's how I feel about my T too. But the advice you got here is good!!! We need to practive mindfulness; all we have is the present. You have your T NOW. I know it's hard though. My mood sort of plummeted along with yours when I read your post, but you CAN move beyond those feelings. You CAN!!

Yes your T DID reassure you. He did! Can you try to believe that?