I also have a passion for exotic dance. I have been kicked around by a voice named Camille Paglia (the anti-feminist feminist) who makes a living denigrating women and praising men. She says strippers are goddesses but I think she's only talking about that in abstract and that if she met one who was less than perfect at best she wouldn't care at worst she would humiliate them. She says I suck at it and I'm not good enough to do it. I feel like I have something to prove. I feel like I have to do it to prove that I'm worthy of it. I want to be PERFECT.

I'm afraid I'm not gonna be any good at it and that it's a pipe dream and that life really does just suck.