Well its been a rough couple of weeks. I quit T on Sept 6th. I really do miss my T but I had to take a hard look at my progress with him and my ability to process things with him... and I'm not convinced I should go back to him. Therapy with him is 100% psychodynamic and it really did do a good job of getting me to let down the walls of my fortress.... but there was no skill building, no "advice" not much feed back... and that itsn't working for me... Its all grace and no truth...

On top of that there was a lot of personal chit chat and I know a lot about him and we started to relate more as friends (nothing inappropriate) and some of the things he said about non T things made me change how I saw him as a T....

Tonight 6:30pm eastern time, I go to see a new T. I picked a woman this time. I don't feel at all comfortable with women. Actually I realized all my doctors and even my dentist is a man. When she asked what I was looking for in a T, I said that I wanted someone who will listen and empathize but who is going to call me out on my BS, to give feedback, to help set up boundaries. Her philosophy is more eclectic... IFS, CBT, Psychodynamic.

But I'm anxious about it so I could use some support.