(((((((Desirae)))))))

I am so sorry you are going through all of this! I don't think it's your fault, you are doing the best that you can and your husband has to take the responsiblility too. I wouldn't want to see either you or your children go hungry. But I know what you mean about putting them first, since I'm a mom myself. I just feel so bad for you, but I am glad your mom showed up. I agree with gtrplayer who said there are organizations that can help. You and your children should not have to suffer. Also you are a wonderful mother from everything I've ever read in your posts and I remember always talking to you in chat.

Anyway I hope things get better for you, you don't need all these worries and stresses on you. Please take good care of yourself and don't feel as if you have to carry everything on your shoulders, it's just too much.

Love,
Sujin