I already have a doctor and a therapist, so it's not like I don't have treatment. The issue of what I have doesn't really matter to them because it's more about the symptoms. The issue of what I have comes up when I look for help outside of the doctor's office or therapists office.

I'm a very lonely person in general. I have a supportive family, but I don't know where I belong in the community. I am jelous of those who write about their conditions as if they know what they are and can label them because there is a sense of identity there.

I am kind of just frustrated that I don't know where I belong fully. I am depressed, but I'm also something else. Something that's causing the depression that makes my thinking difficult.

It doesn't help that my daughter at age 12 is having trouble and has been having suicidal thoughts. I get them too. It seems we both get them whenever we are stressed. I get worn out fighting them, so I can only imagine what she's going through trying to keep herself from acting on her feelings.