So I'm currently extremely sad. I want to curl up in a ball and just cry until I pass out or die,whichever happens first. I know I need to see my therapist but she is booked until Wednesday when I have an appointment. I wish I could say I could take my medicine and be okay but my medicine is all mixed up and my pdoc isn't back in the office until Monday next week.
I'm at work and trying to calm myself down but I don't know what's triggering such a high level of depression right now. I'm already crying and cant afford to do it in front of customers. And I feel weighed down and just heavy like an elephant is on my shoulders. I'm shaky with racing thoughts, and I just don't know what to do. Telling myself that I need to feel better isnt helping, or even healthy.
I'm trying to identify triggers that make me feel this way but I can't seem to do it. I just feel...does that even make sense?