Therapy is a learning process, T is trying to help you learn to deal with these feelings. I have done this to people IRL, mainly when I was younger (occasionally now, if I'm not mindful) I lost friendships with lots of good people in my life because I couldn't stop this behavior. Your T is being very patient and is trying to teach you that it doesn't have to be this way. You can be secure in yourself and relationship with T. Listen to his words, read what you wrote. He does care and that's why he isn't rewarding this behavior with what you want. This is a hard lesson to learn, one that has taken me almost 25 years and I still slip up. I know this is hard and I know that it hurts, but the rejection you are feeling is not really true rejection. True rejection occurs when people can no longer tolerate this type behavior and losing people over it is even more painful.