People I am failing miserably. I want to move on, I NEED closure. My anger is all-consuming. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of the emotions. I'm tired of feeling traumatized only to be met with nothing. I'm tired of caring. I'm tired of pain. I'm not connected to my new T. or anybody. I am nobody but a failure. People leave. My absence is so much better than my presence. No words can console me. I need to come to grips with the fact that i'm a ****ing loser. I've never been so obsessive or so angry before that I can remember. It comes from feeling betrayed from someone you trust. It comes from feeling manipulated and deceived from someone you trust. BPD is my issue, and what happened hit me straight in the gut. But I'm expected to keep on going and come out of this fine? I don't think anyone can help me now. Sorry for being so macabre.