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Originally Posted by James0805
I'm James. I'm 42, male, never married-my younger sisters are married with children and have men with stable careers like a teacher. I have my AA but never finished college to get my BA like my sisters. I feel like an underachiever and a loser and not really a man. I take meds and they help but not totally. I have been with depression for over 10 years. I am just a cashier at a thrift store. I've only had dead end jobs, never a career. I don't like cashiering. It's boring. I despair about finding a job I would like to do.
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Hi James, I can totally relate. I am sorry you are feeling low. It's no fun. Especially when you have overachieving siblings and you feel less-then
I hope you will speak with your T to discuss how you are feeling. I found (for me), my Rx can only go so far. Talking with a T seems to really moves things forward when I felt stalled out.
I hope you will concentrate on working on your self-esteem and all the wonderful things / qualities you have to offer.
I, also, understand the feeling of not being challenged. I am currently at a great firm, but I am bored to tears. Literally.
BUT I stay for three reasons (a) with my DXs and everything I've been through, there is no way I would be able to manage working at our firm in a higher level position at this time (or any other firm for that matter). (b) this position affords me the opportunity to focus on T and to do all of my homework, etc so I can get better; and (c) to get out of the house and into the public so I don't start isolating (again).
And I know it's not forever
I wish you the best and hope you will keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
Hugs, Rose