hope. I really like you and I really don't want you to see me like this. I think I am going to have to feel these feelings, instead of hide or cover them or supress them. It's going to come out eventually. I was reading about complex cumulative trauma, and the stages of grief. It is okay to feel angry. I have never really felt this way. When I started to feel it, I couldn't stop the feeling. I can only control my words and actions. That is what I am doing. It came. It went. It could come back. But I am facing this now. Then I can move on and actually be free.