I couldn't even remember what my T looked like for a whole year because I never looked at her, only her feet and her toes. She had lovely feet though. It is hard to make eye contact whilst you are telling a stranger the most intimate parts of yourself. The eyes can give away so much. I myself have very sad eyes and people can alwys tell what mood I am in by looking at my eyes, so I think that by hiding my eyes from T she won't be able to see how I really feel. I know its silly.