I hear you. Feeling like no one cares is really painful. I guess that having three different ts in such a short space of time hasn't helped because there probably hasn't been time to build a good working relationship with one. I hope the latest one is the right one for where you're at. It sounds like you would benefit from looking at your background and current relationships but building trust in the T is important. Once you can work deeply with a therapist things might settle inside as you feel safer internally. Then even when you're ploughing through the horrible stuff there might still be a sense of solidarity. It sounds like you haven't found that with a T yet and that can cause a loss of faith in the whole process.