Button, I'm in the same boat, or a similar one, as you. I'm so sorry that T1 terminated you out of the blue. Mine terminated me over about four months or so, but it wasn't my decision. I now have a brilliant T but am not sure I can let him in at all. I don't know if I can let anyone in after trusting someone (Past stuff) and having them take advantage of that. I wish I could tell you to relax and let yourself attach, but the reality is, that I can't guarantee that she won't terminate you. I wish I had the answers for you but I am here if you need me!