It hurts... I've gone through the same thing. You have no idea, the time spent wishing I could go to my ts house, see her horse, live with her. Although my situation is a bit different (I wish she could be my mom and u wish for her to be your sister), I totally get it. I've had to have the same convo with my t, and I was an emotional mess te next couple days. It hurts. But u will be ok.