Hang in there, there is light at the end of the tunnel. I can relate to you. I have practicallyost my home, end of a foreclosure sale date, I had been suffering from depression for almost 14 years and I have a beautiful kid whom to live for and to on for. I know what it is dealing with teenagers (I have two in the house now).

I'm sorry to hear about your mother committing suicide and your teenagers acting up. It seems to be more of a process because from what I see, they soon begin to realize what the meaning of life and responsibilities are, it hits them up at age 18 when they turn into adults.

The point is that none of us here would like to see you do harm to your self and it is in times like these that you need these type of reinforcements to let you know that there is life at the end of the tunnel and that there is much more to live for out there than to just throw it away. Hang in there.